Lara, Victoria-001

Have you ever wanted two things at the same time, but you can only have one. I am stuck in this situation where I feel like the devil is on one shoulder and the angel on the other. Both have their pros and cons, but I am still torn between the two. You know how every cliche movie has a situation and there is always that person who says to follow your heart. Well what if your heart does not know what it wants, or what if it wants someone else to decide. I guess that is apart of growing up, you have to make decisions even when do not want to because that is apart of life. You have to learn through trial and error, so I guess growing up sucks. Why do they not warn you when your a kid, and all you can think about is how bad you want be old. It is crazy how life works, it is like a never ending rollercoaster until the rollercoaster finally breaks down because it is too old to function. Well back to my situation, so what do you do when on one side your happy and everything is just easy, bu...

The other day I noticed that I really need to start going to the gym again. I used to always be in shape, like really toned everywhere. Now I am skinny, but I just look like I lost all my tight toned skin. Lately all I eat is candy it is becoming a scary thing. On the side of my bed there is at least two bags of candy, or sometimes there is chips and ice cream. I have the worst eating habits, but I never really realized it because I was always in softball so it kept me in shape. Now that I am not playing anymore I guess I just stopped working out. I mean my grandma tells me I am so skinny and she does not understand that I know I am small, I am just not tone. Today is the day I start my diet, no more late night in n out trips and definitely no more taco truck. Plus it is time for daily runs and trips to the gym. Wow this is seriously going to be the most difficult thing of my life. Seriously I eat taco truck at least once a week, sounds crazy but I am being dead honest. You want to kn...

What is going on everybody! Lately I have been in the best mood, like no negative energy. I catch myself just hyping myself up. Recently I made the choice to hand a few people the scissors. I felt like they were just really two faced all the time, and I just found myself getting tired of their bullshit. I am a really drama free person, so when they were cut off it was a major relief. Since then I feel like a whole new me, you can feel it in my energy. Wow I just realized how cliche I sound, oh well get over it. Usually I am uncomfortable to be me around new people but I realized you have to just be yourself. You can not pretend to be someone you are not because then you can never be truly happy. When I was around toxic people I found myself losing pieces of myself trying to be someone I am not. Now I feel like in complete boss mode, like seriously I will just get super turnt out of nowhere because I am so happy with life. My skin glowing and my hair growing, if you are a female you k...