Lara, Victoria-001

Man it is finally the end of the semester, and I could not be happier. So far college has been such a chill experience, I mean it was not what I expected it to be. I thought that the professors would be mean and I would be piled with work. To be honest the first day of school I thought my social life had ended because I was going to be too busy for anything. Turns out I was completely wrong, college movies are nothing compared to the reality. The professors that I have now are actually comedy to me. I mean that in a good way too, they just all have such different personalities. But they all speak to you like your an adult which is the best part. They are not scared to cuss out loud or cancel a class because they are too tired to attend. I got the chance to meet some great people this semester, I am going to be sad when it is over. But, at least I will be able to see more new face along the way. It is hard to believe that I am halfway done with my first year of college, it is shocking...

How are you supposed to be focus on school when sometimes you are just too depressed. I mean things happen and all of a sudden you are stuck at a red light. When I am at school I try to think about the positive reasons of why I am attending. The reasons are always the same, because my family said that a higher education meant more money. Society taught me that college was the next step after high school. But, everyday when I am at school I just sit and wonder how my life would be without school. Maybe I want to invent something and become a billionaire like Steve Jobs. I am going to Stan to be a LIBS major, in easier words I want to be an elementary school teacher. Although I love kids, what is the point of going to college for a job that does not get paid the fair amount. In reality I am not going to able to buy a BMW I8 or a mansion. Why am I still going to college if even when I finish, I am still not going to have what I want. People say money does not make you happy, well neithe...

Today is the day I realized what stress really is. Stress is having three reports due at the same time. I mean I have a five page essay on a review of a book I barely started reading, and the worst part about it is that I also have a 10 minute presentation too. How am I supposed to do a presentation on a book I do not even understand. I am basically praying for a miracle to happen. On top of the stress for that essay I also have an essay due for Fine Arts. This essay has to include art, theatre, and music all in one. I wanted to do the video instead, but the girl I was supposed to do with it is a complete lag. I do not want to rely on someone, then get a bad grade because I did not complete it. My last essay due is report on my fieldwork for LIBS which is not hard, but it is the fact that I have no time. The stress I have keeps building up, making me more and more depressed. I also do not know what any of my grades are since most teachers decide not to post them. So basically I am ei...